pat is in a good mood today so dance practice was kinda fun. but i think we're going to screw up the performance. argh!

guess i'm gonna get an E for my SS module. today is the last tutorial and i finally asked my virgin question:" if your answer is incline towards creating social cohesion what about the problem of ' brain drain'? those elithes whom most probably will be the future leaders of s'pore do not care about the social cohesion or whatsoever. so do you think nation-building has failed cos' s'pore is unable to retain its talents?" o gosh, i totally regretted after i asked this question cos' it was like asking for the sake of asking. argh! and i was blushing (can you believe it) cos' i was soo totally embarrassed. the worst part was, it totally didn't pull up my tutorial participation grades also. i think my results in university will suffer and the feeling of not being able to do well really sucks. ain't life a bitch? mm, or perhaps i shouldn't think this way cos' according to the social work module i'm taking, self-efficacy people usually do better in their studies.

mm, today i was talking to my dancemates on the train and we were talking about our boyfriends and stuff. they kinda planned their future already, as in their future with their boyfriends. getting married at what age, what job they will be doing etc. i realised i don't talk about such things anymore . maybe i'm cynical, or maybe i've matured, but i don't believe in fairy tales or living happily ever now. as in we won't know what is going to happen in the future and being the superstitious me, i think it's bad luck to talk about such things.

why can't i be blessed with good skin like so many other people? now my legs look scary. ):

haven't seen you for a day and i feel weird. oops, so nian. (:

i should quit complaining and sleep abit before doing anything else. tata.